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Cosmia Nebula
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People's Republic of China

:thumb269960401:Pinkamena stamp by jewlechoSad Pinkie Stamp by jewlecho
So hello, and welcome to my dA page.
I'm just a little pony that studies inapplicable math, befit only for an infirm ivory tower dweller. I'm also interested in anatomy, biology and death. Expect to find a lot of depressing stuffs in my gallery.
My ponysona is Cosmia Nebula, and she is a freelancing astronomer and mathematician living somewhere near Ponyville Library.

Pinkamena is my favorite pony.

Vegetarian Stamp by Veggi-Club
the most common stamp by ViscountDevil- I think too much - by YuhonOptimists by ToastersToastToastHumans are pathetic. by World-Hero21
Geek Stamp Series - Science by Ducksauce-splashMad Scientist - stamp by martinaceciliaHere Comes Twilight Stamp by Kevfin
Twilight Sparkle 'Boreal' Stamp by BlueDragonHansTwilight Sparkle Stamp by jewlecho
REQUEST: TwiShy Stamp by DallyDog101Twishy Stamp by migueruchan

What Would Pinkie Pie Do? by GingerFoxy

"Equestria cannot exist, for our world would bring corruption to such a miracle if it ever does. The human chaos from our world would tear their world apart. Their nonexistence is what is protecting their perfection."
I take things too personally.

- Substantiate that statement with details.
There is a reason I block comments on most websites. Opinions. Opinions are scary. Opinions that are merely statements of (probably objective) facts are not opinions and I can deal with them just fine. Opinions that are about subjective feelings are invasive. 
There is a reason I hate reading fanfics. Most fanfics are long expositions of ideas, that is, "What if [headcanon]?", "How would [economy/military/history] work in this setting?", "How would these ponies interact if faced with [unusual circumstances]?" Some of them are full of opinions. 
There is a reason I don't read the ending paragraphs of news reports. When the reporter reaches the ending section, that's where they run out of facts to report and start voicing their opinions instead. Usually the body of the report would still have opinions infused in them, but at least it's not the most prominent feature. In the ending sections there's little else but opinions.

- How do you react?
I hide. If the comment section appears on the bottom, I won't scroll to there. If the comments appear floating on the side of the article, I put a piece of paper on the screen to block it out. If the speaker starts making concluding remarks, I close the video. 

- And criticism, don't forget to talk about your fear of criticism.
Criticism is hell. 
I would gladly destroy all lifeforms (of course including myself) if that means I won't ever be criticized ever. Personal death won't help, because I care about posthumous criticism too. The only way to eliminate all criticism, both in the present and the future, is total destruction. 

- Maybe the doctor was right. Maybe you really have social phobia.
There is a reason why in my personal heaven there are only three lifeforms... me, friend, and Princess Luna. 

- Why are you even writing this? 
There are three uses of creative writing. 1. To record information for future reference. 2. To comb the strands of thought and unmessify messy ideas. 3. To express emotion and make it peaceful.
Earlier today I unfortunately read blog of someone who was vociferously eloquent against many things, and I felt everything they criticized was specifically about me. With this piece I wish to accomplish the third purpose.

Oh and I totally talk to myself a lot like this. It's normal if you spend days alone in a room.

- Guess what, there's a psychometric scale for this!
Oh goodie, someone can make a dA journal meme out of this.

Test - Fear of Negative Evaluation

Read each of the following statements carefully and indicate how characteristic it is of you according to the following scale:
1 = Not at all characteristic of me
2 = Slightly characteristic of me
3 = Moderately characteristic of me
4 = Very characteristic of me
5 = Extremely characteristic of me

1. I worry about what other people will think of me even when I know it doesn't make any difference. - 4
I hate posthumous criticism almost as much as contemporary criticism.
2. It bothers me when people form an unfavorable impression of me. - 4
I won't mind if I very much disapprove that person, but if not, I'd be very bothered and scared.
3. I am frequently afraid of other people noticing my shortcomings. - 5
They will criticize me like vultures circling over a dying wildebeest. 
4. I worry about what kind of impression I make on people. - 4
(This question is indeed similar to question 8. I guess it's intended to be used as a double-check.)
5. I am afraid others will not approve of me. - 4
6. Other people's opinions of me bother me a lot. - 5
7. When I am talking to someone, I worry about what they may be thinking about me. - 5
Talking to non-friends, for me, is a game of chess, and quite often I feel that the only winning move is not to play.
8. I am usually worried about what kind of impression I make. - 4
I revised this article several times just to make sure the wording wouldn't sound stupid or offend others.
9. I am afraid that people will find fault with me. - 5
Can I use "6"? Because that's very much what I fear.
10. If I know someone is judging me, it has serious effect on me. - 5
I'd like to run away immediately, or teleport out of that place.
11. Sometimes I think I am too concerned with what other people think of me. - 5
Why else would I write this?
12. I often worry that I will say or do the wrong things. - 5
Actually, right now I'm very worried that someone would say I'm exaggerating my characteristics for whatever reason (accusations of being an attention hoard seems to be the most common), because I used too many "5" in this test.

Score your result: 55
Ummmmm that looks very bad. According to Carleton et al., Social anxiety and fear of negative evaluation: Construct validity of the BFNE-II, J Anxiety Disord. 2007;21(1):131-41, the average score for this test is 19.68 for men and 25.20 for women, with a standard deviation of 13.00 and 12.42 respectively.

(slightly modified from) Leary, M. R. (1983). A brief version of the Fear of Negative Evaluation Scale. Personality and Social Psychology Bulletin, 9, 371-376.
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  • Drinking: water

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KopaLeo Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Mhhm I do like Pinkie's birthday parties.
Luted Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I wish you a good birthday. <3
KopaLeo Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you. It was an ok birthday.
FerrumFlos1st Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2015

Happy Birthday, Kopaleo.
KopaLeo Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
44xiexie 3ni, 31haoxin de 2ren.
Mane-Shaker Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Happy Birthday! :)
KopaLeo Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you. It was an ok birthday.
Mane-Shaker Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
By ok, you mean classic stuff?
Cake, family, friends, etc?
KopaLeo Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I just wanted to be left alone, but was made to attend some celebrations with acquaintances I hardly care.
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